I'm wondering about something.

As many of you know, I've been experiencing money issues recently. Today, I was thinking of how odd it is that I used to work fewer hours per day, yet I was making more than enough money. (Granted, I was living in an apartment with lower rent.)

Now, I'm taking on a lot of work, putting in a lot of hours, and I'm having money problems. This wasn't the case a year ago. I did have problems getting paid - at least three times last year, my invoices remained unpaid because nobody was telling me that there was a problem with them - but I wasn't worried about my income, apart from that.

Two years ago, I had a truly large sum in my account, more than I've ever had. I was still living in the old apartment at that time, so my rent was lower, but I was buying a fair amount at the time.

My question is, what forces in my life are causing this? Ingratitude? Inability to trust in the universe to give me what I ask for? Or is it something else?

One expense I've had is therapy, though the sessions are now twice a month, rather than weekly. Still - why is it that even though I keep a record of what I spend, when I think of ways to cut spending, I have difficulty even thinking of the right ways?

Most of this reckless spending goes on food. I need to lose some weight - and I have - but I'm far from obese, and I don't have any bizarre eating habits. Working so much, I tend to buy things from the store fairly often, and to pick up food from a restaurant on my way home, so I don't have to cook, because I'm too tired. When I try to think of ways to reduce these costs, I'm in a quandary.

Any ideas about the underlying issues here?