Okay, I really don't know what to do here.

The place where I work only pays me once every three weeks. Yes, once every three weeks. I hate it. I'm not all that fond of the work anyway - it's not something that makes me happy to do; I just earn money at it, when I'm paid.

I tried to take money out of my account today, only to be told that I had hardly any funds in it. Yes, the company is behind on paying me. Again. This happened at least three times last year, by the way.

I came home, tired, and heard loud screaming coming from the owners' daughter; they live upstairs, so all noise they make is heard very well by me. (She wasn't screaming for emergency reasons, she was screaming just to make noise, not an uncommon occurrence.)

So. I am tired of working for a company that refuses to pay me any more than it does, despite the fact that my rate of pay has not increased in five years. I'm sick of the fact that they refuse to pay me every two weeks, the way they used to. I'm sick of finding out that I have hardly any money in my account. I'm sick of living in a rented apartment, rather than having my own house.

So, I know the universe is sending me these strong signals as a way of telling me to change my life, to earn money doing what I love to do, and live in a house that I own, free and clear, where it's quiet and peaceful.

What I wonder is, what do I DO with these signals? Do they mean that the universe is sending me real work and a house of my own, or are these reminders of what I want out of life? Do they mean that something truly wonderful is going to happen, or that I should take matters into my own hands and make the change happen?

Any thoughts?

Just moments ago I read a Buddhist quote that might apply:

"An idea that is developed and put into action is more important than an idea that exists only as an idea."

My suggestion is to decide where you want to go, what you want to do. Where do you want to end up? Then brainstorm some ideas of how to get there. Get serious about it. Write down steps you can immediately begin taking to get to your goals, then focus on them and take action to achieve them. Pay special attention to any self-talk you have internally that tells you why you can't do something. Ignore self-talk. Move forward and attain your goal, step-by-step.

Regards,
John

I hear a lot of complaining about what you don't want. Please let me hear you describe in minute detail about what you DO want. I'll disagree with Neiby: Don't ignore self-talk -- change your self-talk. Begin to plan what, where, and how you want you life to be. Whenever you see a step toward that direction -- take it!! We're here with you every step of the way.

Here's a new word to add to your vocabulary for self-talk:

Pronoia: the sneaking suspicion that the entire Universe is conspiring to shower ME with blessings.

Open your eyes and put your hands out!

Yes, that is even better advice. Don't just ignore the bad self-talk, change it to positive self-talk. Definitely a better idea.

EN,
These signals are meant to motivate you toward your highest good ~ be it the house, the career (notice I didn't say "job," because a career should be what will fulfill us in every way!), the income comfort ~ they're all a very big piece of your highest good, or greatest potential. You are being nudged, hon.

I couldn't agree more with what Neiby said about the goal-planning; I'm even being urged to mention putting the list up somewhere where you will see it every day. The Secret calls this spot a "vision board" but it's basically an affirmative, positive reminder of where you are GOING in life. The self-talk 'shift' Cris is mentioning will begin to put all that intensity you have towards what you DO want ~ your highest good ~ not towards what you do not want.

We love you as Fambly, and are here for you!

Ash

Hi Erin,

I am so sorry for what you are experiencing at this moment.

I would like to tell you something I learned and it has helped me and others even in the most upsetting surcomstances.

It's from a book by Eldon Taylor. When something happens you do not like, anything like a situation a mishap etc. you could say or think: "I can't wait to see what good happens from this

If you percevere and keep on repeating this through the day's you come into a sort of neutrality, you look at the emotions around the matter more from a distance you are not IN it and than things can change for the better, you are more relaxed.

Really, things start to change because you have given it space to move,to change and you can look with delight at all the beautiful things happening in your life and all you have to say is THANK YOU !

Saying Thank You to all nice things in your day and life is also a great way for things to change (I know this can be hard and I do'nt always remember )

Thinking of you.
Love and Light on your path
Pinky

I do have a visualization board, as a matter of fact, and I'm going to make more; the walls will be decorated with what I want!

I've been thinking about what I want a lot lately:

Complete and lifelong financial independence.
The ability to go wherever I want, whenever I want, however I want, for as long as I want.
My own house.
Lots of friends.
Good times.
A real career.
A life filled with all the best kinds of abundance.

(This is in no particular order; just as I happen to think of them.)

You see, I'd been telling myself that I would always have tons of money in the bank, always always always, so to find out that I had virtually none was a hard bump to hit yesterday. I've been working on reprogramming my thinking, such as:

"No matter how much I spend, I receive a thousand times more."

Now, I think that's a good thought to keep. The bank computers, apparently, think otherwise.

I'm still repeating it, though.

Hi En,

Your list looks good, but you need to go into WAY more detail about each item on there.

For ex. "my own house" How big is it? what color is it? what style, how old, where is it located, what's the yard like, how is the kitchen laid out, what do you see when you look out the windows?

It's details like these that tell the universe which directions to go. "My own house" is a great destination, but without the detailed road map it can be pretty hard to find.

Once you've hashed out all the details, (I strongly suggest writing it all down, and finding actual pictures from magazines or the internet...even draw or paint it. )

...then a very important step is to see yourself there. In your home enjoying it. Really let yourself feel what it's like. How excited, filled with joy are you there? What does that great couch in your living room feel like to sit on it? how much do you love cooking in your new kitchen. How much do you love basking in the morning sunlight while you sit and eat breakfast?

What I always do next is then visualize a thousand lightening bolts leaving my head in every direction out to the universe going to get it for me. Don't worry about how they're doing it, just trust they'll do it. Know it's coming to you and go on with your day. When I do this 2x a day, I find things come to me quite quickly.

Good Luck!

Hi EN,
An excellent tool in helping to bring about what you desire is using afformations. If you haven't done so already, read the folloewing post:
http://quantumtouch.groupee.net/eve/forums/a/tpc/f/3531030471/m/2181074122
Christina
P.S.
The more you talk about what you don't want (like 99% of your post) the more energy you are giving to it/reinforcing it/creating it.
Do give afformations a chance.

There's a great little book called "I'm Rich Beyond My Wildest Dreams. I am. I am. I am." by Tom and Penelope Pauley.

It helps you get very specific in what you ask for and it really made me focus on exactly what I want.

It's working great for me. Check it out and see if it appeals to you.

Roy

Sonja, that's great!

I do, as a matter of fact, have several pictures of my dream house on my visualization board. All I have to do is look up, and I see it. The photos were printed on a b/w printer, so I don't see them in color unless I go to the website and take a look. When I do that, I tell myself, "Yep. Definitely need to repaint that living room."

Now, one thing is important for me to tell you. I'm an American living in Europe. My dream is to have a house in my hometown, and one here in Europe. I did find a gorgeous place online (a house for sale here, that is), and two years later, it's still for sale. Coincidence? Nah.

The house in my hometown is the one on my visualization board. I have a picture of the outside, of the living room, of one of the bathrooms, and some other areas. It has a lot of land, too. I think about having friends over, repainting where I'm not crazy about the color scheme, renting land to an organic farm, having people come to stay for visits, breathing the clean air, and enjoying the peace and quiet.

As for the other house, the one here, I've seen photos online, but they're too small to print effectively. I'd always be squinting at them. I've never visited the house, but I'm familiar with the layout of the property and I've seen several interior photos. Again, I think of having people to visit (yes, important to me), renting some of the land out, enjoying the peace and quiet, doing some repainting, etc.

So, yes, I do have some details going on here.

My visualization board is a bit of a hodgepodge, containing pictures of houses as well as appliances and some non-material things. I'm going to create themed boards - one for friendship, one for love, one for material wealth, etc. You get the idea. My walls are very bare right now, so I'm going to surround myself with what's important to me!

Now, I know you're all going to LOVE what I'm going to tell you!

I dropped in on a business where I'm a regular (this happened today), and the guy working there made a VERY good suggestion about a way to earn more money, doing something that I love to do. I had, as a matter of fact, thought about that idea, but had thought that I should wait until some time in the future, when I had more resources. But he's right; I should do it NOW. So, I'm gonna sit myself down and DO IT!

More good news. I'm getting paid by the company where I work, and since the invoice will just barely cover my rent, I'm getting paid on the latest invoice three weeks in advance! I talked to the woman in charge, explained what happened, and she agreed to expedite my latest invoice. By Friday, it will be paid.

I made out an invoice for another client. It will be mailed tomorrow.

This morning, when I was walking down the street, a delivery van drove past.

The name printed on the van was "Augur".

I looked at it for a long moment.

Some other signs popped up today, too.

Oh, Roy, I ordered Rob Brezsny's book "Pronoia: How the Universe is Conspiring to Shower You with Blessings" recently; it hasn't arrived yet, and when it does, I plan to dig into it. The next time I order a book, though, I'll be sure to order the one you recommended.

I caught myself thinking of my bank balance several times today, then switched to another, more heartening topic. I think of my website, which is my idea, my work (well, not all of it; I didn't design it), and something that is both interesting to me and a good way to be creative. I think of earning money everywhere I go, with everything I do. I even let the song "Money Makes The World Go 'Round" run through my head!

And I think of friends, friendship, other relationships, having healthy people in my life, traveling, having the ability to buy a house anywhere and at anytime should the whim strike me (which is unlikely; I'm just training myself in abundance thinking).

In "Walden", Thoreau said (and this is a loose quote) that sometimes you have to be completely lost to find where you really are. And either Thoreau or Emerson stated:

"What lies before us and what lies behind us are small matters compared to what lies within us. And when we bring what is within us out into the world, miracles happen."

"What lies within us" is Emerson.

Hey En

Way to go girl!!!!!! This post of yours sounds so incredibly different from your others and I sense a true shift in your energy.Well done - see this stuff DOES work!!!

Much love
Wendy

Hello EN
I'm so grateful that you put up this thread becouse the replies you received are all valid for my situation, at least on the career side.
(I'm quite happy about our house)
I apologise for taking a ride on this thread but I'm having problems reading the signs the universe is giving me. One thing that I don't fully understand is what part the universe play in situations where people acheive what they want through corruption. One thing I'm sure of is that they are denied happiness.
Probably I was stuck in my career situation becouse I felt that I was 'needed', now I'm feeling 'used'. I'm publicly asking the universe to show me where I am needed now and appreciated.
It's so releiving to share the journey with fellow travelers.

Nicky,

Maybe remove "needed" from your wish-list, and keep "appreciated."
A career should be a healthy relationship, where everything is balanced, and non-co-dependent (needy). Respect is the key you are searching for that fits the lock that seems to be holding you back, yes? Feeling "needed" leaves a lot of room for the other party to take advantage, be unappreciative, and become an energy drainer.
Feel that respect flowing to you now. You are respectable, you are worthy, and your services are appreciated...and with that healthy respect there, monetary compensation and the entire work environment will shift or change to be more balanced and healthy for you - even if it means a change in location.

As far as the signs from the universe go - I think you've "gotten it," considering you've picked up on the fact that what you have is no longer serving you, as you have been serving it. The universe shows us imbalances in many forms so that we may begin to create balance and harmony within, which will create balance and harmony around us, as well.

And, you are correct about those who receive en masse through corrupted ways of being - they are robbed of happiness in other areas of life. It may take a while for the karma police to catch up to them, but it does happen eventually.

Love to all of you!