Hello, everybody,
Got a bit of a problem here, and don't know exactly how to help myself.
Taking Dennis and Kathy's workshop here in Denver was the epitome of love, gentle learnings, forthcoming abilities, all GOOD things. Kathy and Dennis were wonderfully caring instructors-I gained a great deal of knowledge.
I also have lost the ability to run energy!
I don't know what has happened, as I ran it at the workshop. I told Dennis at the time that I couldn't "feel" it. He was not worried, told me, in essence to "fake it till you make it". Good advice which I followed.
I haven't as yet remembered how to "fake" it. This has happened at very few times, all during my life. Yet, this time is very frightening! I hae NOTHING to work with.
Any ideas?
I'm faking like mad, but neither bird (Gus nor Honker) feel the "fake". (I run energy on them first thing in am, just on general priniciple.)
Dennis told us we would dream, both good and bad. OY!
I don wanna dream no more, Dennis! NO more!
You talk about Stephen King! I can make him seem boring with the processing I am going through. I understand that I am processing a great deal of information, but I need the ability NOW!
Here is the reason I need it NOW! Please, help me, teach me someone...

Yesterday, Honker had a major relapse: Birds react to weather changes, each bird in its own way, and mine scream at the tops of their lungs until the change is complete. Trust me, this would drive Ghandi to murderous thoughts if nothing else.
Honker had the wobbles return, which now means BIGTIME pain, or feed me NOW, you lazy slut! (how'd he know?)
I gave him his portion of pain medicine, which is not given often, and had not been given for about two weeks. He wouldn't eat, no matter what I made or did.
He began to slow, then stretched out FLAT on his tummy, a very unbirdlike posture. Eyes open to the point of no boundry, only pupil. Then he stopped breathing! I ran energy, or tried to, for three hours, as he gradually returned to life, after several convulsions. The situation was so very bad I called Jerry LaBonde's office for confirmation of what I thought I was seeing. They confirmed my thought, Honker was dying. I called my husbands office left a voice message to come home as soon as possible, as Honks was dying. He did, even against all of his own personal rules (which no longer apply to me. Big Changes There, nother story)
While holding my feathered heart gently in my cupped hands, I sat in the shabby recliner we use to rock ailing birdies, love them well.
Sitting there, rocking, trying to run, toning, finally Singing, (which is prohibited in many states-I have no pitch no voice, can't remember lyrics, and am banned from any form of rhythm at all) I simply sat and cried and tried so hard. I couldn't lose him, yet I would not try to keep him.
I told him it was okay to leave, to pass, I would be there soon enough too, Honker you have done your work here, leave if you want to, stay if you don't wnt to leave, but please, end your suffering, make a choice for yourself. Either way is okay, my little heart.
Then I waited, rocking, dripping, sending uselessly.
Finally, he came back-his choice, no pressure in any way to return to the pain he so obviously feels. Slowly, he returned, his eyes became normal, the quivering normally indicating impending death stopped. I am so grateful.
He turned in my hands, tucked his head under my chin. Dennis, you would have been proud!-I immediately turned into a puddle. He is back at the "gimmee that toy I just flung so I can do it again-stage" Lungs sound normal, full volume...
Eating well, enjoying teasing Gus. Even Gussie realized yesterday was the day from hell. She kept telling me to "Call the man in the white hat!" a cue-in for her rendition of the William Tell Overture normally. This time it was meant as it was said, "get help".
Okay, now am asking for help. I am frightened, ticked off at me, want it NOW! to help Honker. (From whom I learned impatience, I am sure.)
Help, please. Why couldn't I do a thing? Why can I STILL not do a thing?
zeneagle

tried to correct and hit the wrong button - meant to say how can that be doing nothing.

Honey, it sounds like you brought Honker back from birdie heaven, so how can you feel you did nothing?

Glad to hear that honker is on the mend again. Sometimes when we try too hard we can get in our own way. I'm not sure that that's what happened, but it sounds like it. You can't fail at running energy when you "fake it" since energy follows thought. Relax, have fun, tap into a playful spirit, be easy if you can. Let the energy do the work, and all should be as well as it can be.

Hi, Zeneagle -

I, too, am a little puzzled as to why you feel you couldn't do a thing, seeing as you seem to have had SOMETHING to do with your birdie coming back to life!

This may not apply to Quantum Touch - but one thing I seem to remember Rosalyn Bruyere saying on a tape is that the closer to the physical level of vibration you're working, the more strongly and obviously you feel the vibrations in your body - not sure whether that applies here, but since you seem to have had a rather extraordinary result from your healing efforts, perhaps it does.

Hi Zeneagle,

You can't just lose it -- once you got it, you got it. Maybe the workshop made you self-conscious about it, and you've gone from using intuition to using technique, and maybe trying to use the technique is getting in the way.

It seems to me that since you brought Honker back from the edge of the beyond, you can't have lost it. Hang in there, the feeling will come back, and once you integrate the technique, you will be stronger than ever before.

Judith

Lynn,
You may be feeling VERY volatile for quite a while!! We don't usually heal ourselves emotionally and physically without experiencing all kinds of things. The feeling like you can't DO IT anymore is one I have experienced on many occasions so far, but you just have to keep going. I personally think it's just part of the cleansing process. We are our own worst enemy sometimes. If you were not attached to the outcome there probably wouldn't be an issue, but because we DO CARE SO MUCH some times, it does as Richard just said..."GET IN THE WAY". I know that this is easier said than done, but when we reach rock bottom for that particular healing episode is when we just...let go (and let God) so to speak and THAT's when you start feeling better about it. Rest, drink plenty of LOVE and Gratitude healing water and keep breathing and sweeping. And of course, yes, ask your friends for help!!!
Honks...(and Lynn) healing on the way tonight with the rest of the requests!!!
With love, light and faith...

Hi Zen:

A friend was having a hard time feeling anything for a while - not even a little heat. A friend suggested the she try the simple exercise at this website: http://feelingfree.net/author/biography.htm After page opens, click link on the left that says battery problems. Then click on Polarity Reversal and do the simple exercise.

After she did it,she could feel again. Don't know if it really did anything or it was her mind thinking that it would work, but it did.

Website is: http://feelingfree.net/author/biography.htm

Pam

Pam, I have have used this polarity reversal exercise for a long time. It is essenstial and so important. I have my clients do it before a session and I do it for myself. I highly reccomend it as it will assure you get a good quality session with no slow downs or blockages. In the past I had sessions where I just didn't feel things were working. Now it is 100%. Please for everyone give it a try and feel the difference. Don

To Pam and Don,
Very cool info, thanks!! Can't wait to try it!!

Zen has given me permission to post my private reply to her, in hopes that someone else may benefit, so thanks, Zen, and here goes.

Here is what I think is going on with you when healing Honker in emergency situations -- YOU ARE RUNNING ENERGY, that much is certain. I'm glad Richard answered you as he did, he is so very right, of course, lol! But here is my idea of what is going on with you in that dire situation.....

You are under such stress when Honker is in trouble, that your stress hormones, especially adrenaline, go shooting right off the scale, and that is normal. You ARE under stress, & that is the normal physical/emotional response. You have the emotion, the fear, & it's so acute and so sudden, the body responds with a flood of "fight or flight" hormones. Those hormones give you tunnel vision, elevate the blood pressure, make you shake, give your muscles great strength...that is what you GET in that situation. What you LOSE under those conditions is the ability to feel physical pain, or to feel much of anything physically. To survive, people ignore pain, disown pain, banish pain, under those circumstances.

So if you can't feel pain, and are in survival mode, which is exactly what it is, then you also won't be able to feel the sensation of subtle things, like the energy in your hands. That is what adrenalin DOES...enable you to endure pain when in stress/danger/fear conditions, so all "subtle" sensations just go right out the window. The result for you is that you can't feel the energy, so you think "I'm not running energy, I can't send."

Obviously Honker felt it or received it, just see the results. So while you think you're faking it, IMHO, you are not faking it at all, you're just blocked by adrenalin flooding your body, in a panic situation, from feeling anything "subtle." That is normal. And of course, when dealing with ones we love, we become attached to the outcome!

I'd be willing to bet money that today you can feel it again, when out of the emergency....at least I hope so with all my heart!

Love and Blessings, Lynn........Ali.

Hello pjch,
Healereali told me of your email, I read what all had to say -
THANK YOU, ALL! I didn't bring Honks back to us, HE did.
I went to the site you wrote of, pj, and found the "Belly Button Correction". Standing in front of puter, I went through the very easy series of motions.
IT WORKED! My batteries were not only low, but reversed!
(No wonder I can't read at night any more!)
Thanks so very much for the help. I knew ONE of the members would know what the bloody..... was wrong with me.
I promptly printed it out, and glued it to my forehead. Thank you all over my tingly self!
Now, does anyone know how to remove gorilla glue from idiot skin?
Healing Hugs,
zeneagle

pj, it changed how I feel, immediately! How wonderful, and thank you so much for the wonderful kick in the tuchus. I would NEVER have thought of that. Thanks so much.
zeneagle
ps, the bird who was in such jeopardy yesterday is now screaming so loudly I can't hear the puter keys. Honks is down the staircase and to the left, but can still transmit just fine. He is thanking you, too.

PJCH & Don,

I just when through the 5-minute routine she suggests on her site - I feel a nice, smooth flow of energy all through me. Great information!

I learn so much through this message board!

Quite an illuminating insight, HealerAli!