Hello Dear People.

I'm called "Mama Bea" because the majority of my life has been in service to others in the Professional Domestic field. I was a natural nurturer but in the last 10 years I have not done my craft. I'm a mess emotionally and physically.
[LIST]Incorrectly diagnosed with Bi-Polar in 1993 was convinced to take psychotropics for 18 years ( went from 165 to 222lbs by year 2000) According to my research, I told the doctors that the drugs were causing disturbing weight gain. I was dismissed)
1995-Thyroid was removed
1997-Hysterectomy
1999 was involved in a rollover where I suffered broken neck, major concussion and lower back disc impairment (gained another 30 lbs during recovery)
2003-Hospitalized for mental melt-down
2006-Appendectomy and took myself off of all psychotropics by Dec 2007
2007 to Present- Weight gain continues (now at 289 lbs.) Have tried every kind of diet, mental stability is basically by pure onery will LOL,kidneys not good, and having a battle with brain vertigo-type siezures.

My Blessings are that I have a loving and amazingly patient Zen-FriendHusband, a loving mom and grandma, food shelter and water.

I WANT my life back, my health back, my easy smile, I want to have joy and enjoy people again...I want to feel happy again. I haven't in so long and I am getting so tired of this struggle.

PLEASE help me. I will trade for services when I get to Phoenix (cooking, cleaning, writing, sewing, organic gardening) because I have so little money. I can grow anything and would enjoy the therapy of teaching people to grow food and herbs again

Please help me get my life back. I would be so grateful.

Sorry to be so long winded...or fingered.

Hi Mama Bea,
Welcome to the fambly! We're hoping you find lots of love and support here along with some healing energy.
I would suggest that for a request for healing, you place it in that topic heading.
That's where folks go when they have time to send energy. It won't get as much exposure here.
And by the way, "sending energy" is an expression that we use but not totally accurate. Just as in an in-person session what we are doing is raising our vibration/energy level up very high and then placing (by intent with distance work, a miniature) you between our hands.
I will do a short session with you right now to get things started.
Also, besides the people who actually respond and let you know they are sending, there are many silent angels who will be working with you and not posting.
((((((((Mama Bea))))))))
Christina

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Love from Sha

Hello Mama Bea,
Congratulations for making the move to introduce yourself to this family, I'm still grateful for all the help that I recieved since joining.
I felt compelled to answer, to offer my full presence so that you will find yours.
Please remember that the past however painful it was is NOW a concept in our minds. Its only use is to learn from it and learn to let go. The future is also a concept existing only in our minds and is conditioned by our reaction to our past experiencing. When we are fluctuating in our mind between past and future, we tend to miss the most important time of our life. That is the NOW.
I don't have an easy solution but I cannot emphasize enough that our power lies in the present moment. When we get soooo tired of struggling all our life for many years that we finally surrender to the NOW, we may start to see that there is a breathing space around the situation.
Then we start to ask different questions. we start to question what's keeping us from smiling, experiencing joy and peace right NOW.
I am no enlightened master, by saying these things to others I am just reminding myself of WHAT IS.
Courage is not the absence of fear but experiencing fear and going beyond it.
May you find happiness.